An Attitude of Gratitude

As mentioned earlier, on the 5th of June I married the love of my life, the day before I started this journey (I've never done anything by halves!). One thing this disease has taught me is that, it's important to have An Attitude of Gratitude, to show respect for people giving their time and energy in my direction.

The weeks leading up to my treatment, I was not only dealing with a relapse, I was also planning a secret wedding, which would never have happened if it wasn't for an army of people. It is important that everyone knows that I would never have been able to organise this secret wedding, being unwell as I was, plus dealing with the psychological preparation of this treatment if it wasn't for Genelle, Pierrick, Katrina, Renee and of course Angela (who was instrumental in this secret wedding!).

I am reminded that it takes a village to make things happen, which for an independent strong willed person like myself, is difficult. I constantly have to remind myself that asking for help, being vulnerable and sitting back and letting people help is not a sign of weakness. It's a fight that goes on inside me, one side that says "Get-up and just do it, don't let everyone else do stuff for you Melinda, what did you do to deserve this?" whilst the other side says "You're not being lazy, rude or ungrateful, you physically and mentally can't do that Melinda"

So having An Attitude of Gratitude is important to balance out these emotions for someone like me. I know that one day, in a way that I can, I will pay it forward whilst being so incredibly grateful to those around me.