Fear.

Fear is an emotion that I am slowly starting to accept as something that will be part of this journey.

Over the last couple of days the level of fear has escalated, some rational, some completely irrational. Nonetheless, I feel it. I won't go into too many details as to what I am afraid of because some of them are rather personal (and I have to remember that blogging is the equivalent to shouting my story for all and sundry to hear!). But some of it is MS related, mostly around my family, how they will react and cope with events to come. How will I cope, should things become too difficult to manage. The fear of the unknown is dangerous.

In relation to the emotion though, it has dominated me for at least the last 24 hours, and no doubt for some time to come. Couple this with anxiety and you can understand the crippling nature of it. Most of which I bottle up inside and release it with gusto when something tips me over. So my apologies to anyone that may just be on the receiving end of it!